The last five years have been one opportunity after another to do something different. To quit running, turn around, stare the fear down, and run straight into it. I have been astounded again and again by how many of these fears were “monsters under the bed” with no more reality than my childhood imaginations.
Here is the latest fear I have confronted. Money. Not running out of it, but asking for it. Here is the story.
When Landmark Journey Ministries began almost two months ago, the board set a figure to raise: $84,000 for one year ($7000/month). It would be the capital to get the ministry off and running. So I was asked to do something I have never, ever done…call others and ask for money.
The fear of this was not terror or panic. It came out instead as a mild anxiety and discomfort. But I knew I needed to push through it because of what this ministry could do for others. But more importantly because I knew God called me to it. So I got a large list of names and started. The first few conversations I fumbled and stumbled over my words. There were other conversations where I just couldn’t pull the trigger. It felt like being a teenager, calling a girl for a date, and never asking! Other times I would avoid the topic until the very end of the time on the phone.
The real breakthrough came for me one day when I made some calls to complete strangers. I remember one conversation that had actually gone well and this popped out of my heart: “If I can do this, I can do anything.” It hit me that fear was no longer stopping me. I had broken this barrier. I felt alive, tingling, with a deep strength welling up inside of me.
Paul said in the book of Romans that “we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.” I know that his words mean so much more than just handling fear. But I can’t help but believe that they at least include fear. That’s what I felt like in that moment, like a loved conqueror.
So here is the question. What is fear stopping you from today? What would happen if you quit running and stared it down?