So, I am leaving my job as a high school teacher and coach after 20 years. I am coming down into the last quarter of school. Honestly, I feel kind of like the seniors do. I feel spring fever. It’s harder for me to stay motivated. I keep thinking about all the new things I am going to move into. What are some of these new things?
- I will be starting a non-profit organization based around my work with men of all ages. I have no ideas what to name it yet. But the work on it has begun.
- I will be having more time to do small groups for men and retreats for all ages of men.
- I will have time to counsel and talk to men individually.
- I will hopefully be able to use my love of backpacking as a part of this.
- Finally, I will be staying at the school to teach one class to young men.
But what is the vision? What is the passion behind all of this? What kind of quest is this? It is to lead men into a connection to the Father through Jesus that transforms them into real men. It is what has happened to me in the last 5-10 years in a way that has radically reshaped me. I want to lead others, young and old, into this. It really does feel like the adventure set before me, the one thing that I must do, the one thing Jesus is calling me out into.
But therein lies the dilemma. There is no script for what is ahead. It is all unknown. Dangers await at many turns. There will be unseen obstacles ahead. I become afraid. And questions then erupt: “Am I up to this? What if it fails? What if others turn on me?” And then I remember. This is why I hate the unknown. It is anything but safe. But still Jesus calls.
If you want to know what I have felt like at times, watch this clip from Fellowship of the Ring. Many of you will recognize it. I feel like Frodo, the one who must take the ring.
The adventure begins in three months. I hope I am ready!